unable to breathe

Posted on: June 19, 2008

around 10:00 this morning i started experiencing chest pains pero sabi ko sa sarili ko, kaya ko pa din magcalls. around 10:30, hindi na ako makahinga. nobody noticed me, busy din naman ang team sa calls nila. tinatanong na ako ng customer ko kung inaasthma daw ako. sabi ko nalang oo… pero wala akong asthma, lalo namang wala akong sakit sa puso… nadala ako sa clinic ng mga 10:45, i was shaking uncontrollably… wala na din akong maramdaman. ang alam ko lang walang hangin. it felt like i was in a vacuum.

hindi nila malaman kung baket ako nagkaganon, normal ang heart rate at blood pressure ko. hindi naman ako kumain ng hipon. all the nurse was able to say was, i had a breakdown-slash-overfatigue.

ang babait ng mga team mates ko, though. sobrang nag-alala sila saken. tinago ko nalang yung takot ko at nakitawa sa kanila afterwards. ang bait din ni marshey na nagintervene sa call ko… hindi naman siya ang direct supervisor ko pero siya ang kumuha nung call…

2:02, i’m typing this. i’m still feeling weak. i just wanted to share what happened because i’m scared, my family has a history of cardiac arrests… i have no one to talk to. no “you’ll be okay…” no “that’s just nothing…” no “everything will be alright…”

ayun naman, no need to be down. ewan ko naman sa sarili ko. sorry, to whoever reads this, i know it’s a very disappointing contrast. i’m just helping myself… ibang degree na kasi ang worry level ko. o sige na, melai, tandaan mo, kaya mong huminga!

yun lang.

♥ melai


3 Responses to "unable to breathe"

Ang adik mo! You didn’t tell me this and you had me worried sick after reading this! Hmph! Di it reoccur? hopefully not.. I’m sure you’re fine! Wag kasi kalimutan huminga habang nagcacalls diba? hahahaha sus meh yang account talaga na yan oh wahahaha, peace, ingatz and God Bless.

thanks ronn panda! i’m fine now.

magpahinga ka kaya,ate! hehe,. ingatan mo sarili mo! magkikita pa tayo! at gagala sa buong pilipinas di ba? magvitamins ka rin,iha,. mag-ingat ka lagi, ha?

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